More of a serious matter, MtG unrelated. Large amount of reading required.

[Tumalc]

Praying and staying active works for me. As for the money, it is self discipline, something I am not good at. One thing that did work was that I opened a bank account at a bank a good distance away from me. I had no way to get the money that did not involve a 45min drive... There were many times that I would drive there and change my mind before withdrawing any of it.

[Aladormax]

So, yeah, as the title says, this is not related to MtG and is gonna be a wall of text. As you're reading I'm sure you're going to want to know why I chose here as a place to vent this out, it's because I know that this is a safe and anonymous online community of which I have friends and don't need to worry about being flamed or this spreading.

So to the actual point. In the past, I have suffered from depression, and gone through many counselors. Finally, they decided to put me on medicine that kept me happy and was working well. However, recently my mood has been steadily going down. I've been thinking about things in the big picture, and the more I do the more I get depressed. Politicians are ignorant and likely corrupt, selfish, and ultimately evil. Anyone that ever tries to rise against this is silenced. Then there's the fact that the economy sucks and it doesn't really seem like it's gonna get that much better by the time I'm old enough to get a job. Then there's the part about me being an antisocial geek that probably will never really get married.... and I can't seem to save any money. I always spend it on impulse. And I'm ashamed to live in America... for reasons that I won't write because I'm afraid to offend people. Ask me what they are if you wan't and I'll send a PM to you. Anyways, I just feel like my future is bleak in America, because I don't really take interest in anything that might be useful to me in my future... so I'm getting really depressed again. Just not sure what to do about it, I don't want to go back to the doctors or counseling because they never really understand and it just causes me more trouble and sadness. :/

First things first IGNORE THE BIG PICTURE. Now that this is out of the way we can focus on your concerns. The fact that you are here on this forum asking for help is a big step in the right direction for stopping this depression. Also you are not antisocial as you are on a forum talking about something you love with other people who share the same interest. This seems like being social to me as you had to find out about this somewhere be it interwebz or a friend. There is also a great saying that the geek will inherit the earth. The never get married thing may also stem from the antisocial thing, but simply means you haven't met "HER" yet. This is not going to be easy both finding and keeping this lucky girl. However you still have some years before this happens. I also have an idea that may help save you money. Talk to your parents about what income you have and ask that they only ever give you half of it and that they deposit the rest into an account in your name that is locked from you using without their consent. America in my opinion is the lesser of all the evils in the world. Europe is in trouble with their money. The middle east is in turmoil and Asia is going to destroy itself for progress. America may be having problems, but you at least don't have to worry about being shot for what you believe in, or what is going to happen now that your country is bankrupt and you have no job and no chance to get a job. You think that there is no chance for change in America. That no one man can make a difference. I won't change your mind, that battle was lost when you started believing this. I will however point out that we have a holiday devoted to one man who made a difference. India is a country because one man made a difference. We have Magic the Gathering because one man dared to say "is this possible" how can I take this idea and turn it into reality? You just have to find your passion in life and stick to it no matter what. If you can please list all of the things that you enjoy doing in this thread. I will attempt to help you find something that can put some cash into your pocket and make you happy at the same time.

Sorry to all who have to read this As I am just coming out of some of these issues myself and just want to help.

[Gorzo]

Moon, sorry to hear you're having troubles. I really hope you feel better soon. I understand obnoxiously well, having struggled with it for nearly 20 years now. I was diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder in 2004, so ups & downs are kind of my specialty. As for doctors, I recommend you keep checking out new ones until you meet one that you connect with. I went through the gauntlet of idiots myself, but eventually found some doctors that helped me, and it made a world of difference.

If you need to chat about any of this kind of stuff, public or private, post or pm me, I'm more than happy to share my experiences if it might help you.  Hang in there, it gets better.

[BlackJester]

Did you get one of the hot trapez artists or the bendable girl to fall for you my Master?

Sword-swallower, but I digress.