so I know some people here know my personal life pretty well, and my severe depression. I wish I could say over time it's gotten better, but it's just gotten worse.
My parents are also getting divorced. That sucks.
I'm physically ill all the time. I can't stand it. I have no energy and usually feel quesy for days on end.
I confessed to one of my professors I was considering suicide. He had me go to the counsellors office. I don't like it. I miss my old therapist, but he's cross state now.
To top it all off, it's now my birthday. And instead of being happy, I'm dreading my next year alive. All the stresses and ache just so im a year closer to dying, it all feels so trivial. What's the point of living if I just constantly hurt.
I'm sorry to tear down the forums with this kind of depressing topic. Also, the divorce and sickness aren't the only two things, there's just a lot of stuff I'm not sure I'm comfortable saying online. But I still wanted to get that off my chest. I'm sorry for bothering you all
This is going to sound weird and unrealistic, but the solution is: ask yourself, "why do I even give a damn?" Whenever someone gets you down or upsets you, ask yourself, "does it really even .loving. matter what they think of me/what they do." After you stop caring about all the assholes in the world, you will have a lot more time to enjoy yourself.
I've fought with severe depression my whole life as well, so I feel for you. I'm sorry you have to go through it, and for all the stuff life throws at you.
You can pull through, though. It's important to remember that you have lots of people who care about you, and who are willing to help you when you need them. Lean on those family and friends, they are there for you!
Sorry Donnie, but I do NOT agree. Though I do believe there is something, it does not really help me in rough times. I even spoke with a chaplain about what was happening in my life and he totally could relate to my feeling: why me? Jesus cannot help you cope just like that, first you gotta find a way yourself, hard as it may be. Letting go of things that get you down is a good first step.
Quote from: Kaylesh on November 17, 2014, 02:15:58 PM
Sorry Donnie, but I do NOT agree. Though I do believe there is something, it does not really help me in rough times. I even spoke with a chaplain about what was happening in my life and he totally could relate to my feeling: why me? Jesus cannot help you cope just like that, first you gotta find a way yourself, hard as it may be. Letting go of things that get you down is a good first step.
And who helps you find a way? Ask and you shall receive.
Quote from: Dstyle1 on November 18, 2014, 10:32:37 AM
Quote from: Kaylesh on November 17, 2014, 02:15:58 PM
Sorry Donnie, but I do NOT agree. Though I do believe there is something, it does not really help me in rough times. I even spoke with a chaplain about what was happening in my life and he totally could relate to my feeling: why me? Jesus cannot help you cope just like that, first you gotta find a way yourself, hard as it may be. Letting go of things that get you down is a good first step.
And who helps you find a way? Ask and you shall receive.
Not jesus. Believe me, OP, even if religion is right it's so much easier to live agnostic. I don't give a damn and my life is awesome, because unlike my Christian friend, I don't have pressure to do anything society wants me to. Agnostic-ism is the way to go.
I'm going to say it's unfair to turn this in to a Religious/Non-Religious debate on a way to deal with crap going on. As someone who is not religious, I respect that some may turn to it as a way of coping with hard times in their life and to find peace. If that's how they want to go about it, we have no rights to prevent them from doing so.
To actually provide advice - You mention you used to have a therapist. Even if your old one is far away, perhaps you could get a referral to a colleague of theirs to start having sessions again. I was basically forced to go to a therapist a few times when my parents first got seperated, and it helped to talk about it with a neutral third-party, to a certain extent. If that's not an option, I'm sure you could find some sort of support group.
Just focus on what's best for you at the moment, whether that's therapy, support groups or taking time away from school (if your financial situation allows for it).
Oh, I'm not saying that. But, I'm just saying, OP, don't give a care what other people think or society wants and do whatever the .love. feels right.
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Not jesus. Believe me, OP, even if religion is right it's so much easier to live agnostic. I don't give a damn and my life is awesome, because unlike my Christian friend, I don't have pressure to do anything society wants me to. Agnostic-ism is the way to go.
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That's the beauty, you don't have to believe it for it to be there. So believe whatever you. I just know that he believes in you.
Your late teens and early 20s are very confusing on this day and age. The Internet allows us to see the whole world right in front of us and we are still stuck on a computer. The concept is you have everything at your fingertips but in reality, it seems you are so far away.
You are not. Your parents probably waited for you to finish school before this decision, it's pretty common now a days and actually a better decision than splitting up when a child is between 4-9. They stuck together for you and as adults themselves may have found that they don't agree with one another as partners.
As their child, you don't want them to split, believe me I know the feeling. Unfortunately "the parent trap" isn't gonna happen that often IRL, but that doesn't mean they don't love you. It may just be more productive to their own lives to go separate ways. Nothing wrong with that.
Re: depression:
Don't let it drag you down. There is so much potential in the world if you pursue it, depression just wastes your time.
Don't act on any suicidal thoughts, many people do have them, but don't encourage yourself in that realm, you disappearing will only make it harder for those that love you. I almost OD'd when I was younger over a split up between my first real long term GF. Glad I didn't, my life has been ducking awesome. Sure some bumps in the road, but every moment I have time to reflect, I thank the creator. Whether you consider that god or just your own intuition is up to you; no need to say Goto church, just reflect and know you are a good person inside and that the future will bring you wealth of all sorts.